BlackTwiggy

I must say it’s hard loving someone who can’t love themselves
I would know cause I could never imagine someone feeling such a strong emotion for me
I don’t love me
But I love you
Because you’re everything I hope to be
To embellish you would only ruin something that couldn’t get anymore beautiful
The nights or days I’m alone only leaves me to wonder what else you could do
To make this world as imperfect as you
Imperfections are the true beauty in things
Words can never amount to how I feel for you
But I’m learning to try everyday
Sorry if the words don’t come out in the right way
A book
would be better for you
If I wrote you a book would you dare read it…as brutally honest it will be
Or a gallery of paintings for you
Of you
So you would see just how exactly I feel when you look at me
So ready for us….ready to put aside the shaky tides
The ones we so blatantly think we can swim in
But for you I shall
I never want to see you drown
So just stay here while I go swim for your crown

Sold my cold knot
A heavy stone
Sold my red horse for a venture home
To vanish on the bow
Settling slow

Fit it all, fit it in the doldrums
(Or so the story goes)
Color the era
Film it’s historical

My mile could not
Pump the plumb
In my arbor ‘till my ardor
Trumped every inner inertia Lump sum

All at once Rushing from the sub-pump
(Or so the story goes)
Balance we won’t know
We will see when it gets warm

Gargling with salt water is so nasty yuck

Maybe I need to reevaluate myself

I will never understand why my love is invisible to you

It’s hard battling wanting to eat and not choke or throw up vs not eating and losing weight.

Cordrell is treating me like shit right now…expects me to talk about everything when my throat hurts and I get sleepy at times. I’m always doing something wrong apparently